Recurrence, Real Will...

When you think in terms of recurrence you can get a vision of things at times that are powerful for motivating you to do things you wouldn't normally be motivated to do.

When you for instance can begin to discern (and this doesn't mean play God and pass judgment in any way) where a person who has died is in regarding their development (I mean most likely, or the sense you get) and you look for instance at a list of Christians who have left famous works, and just sensing that some if not most of them are perhaps still in the recurrence of their lives, whereas others give you the impression of having attained an escape, so to speak, from their recurrence, you then look at your own life and think, if those people knew what you know now (and I'm talking to people who know Work ideas and practices as-well-as levels of influences, &c.) they'd be wondering why you aren't doing really strange things right now to effect an escape. I mean, making that goal and the means to achieving it your sole, driving interest.

Alot of it has to take its course, of course. I mean, stages of development have to be reached and completed, and valuation has to develop, and true development of level of being has to come to fulfillment, and this takes time (and lives, to put it like that).

But when you count your days, and redeem your time (even on a schedule where you have to make practical, worldly efforts to survive) there is time there.

I can't explain well what I'm trying to capture in this post. I just saw it and had the thought recently, and I havn't captured it completely. I sense there's an element in it that I'm not recalling now as I write this. I guess it corresponds with recent efforts at a type of self-remembering that I'm recording on the other blog linked in the right hand margin. When you force yourself to remember yourself, or be awake, at fifteen minute intervals, for an entire day, what you find that it does is it cultivates Real Will. You experience this during the effort itself, but then the next day when you're not doing that same effort you are constantly getting that conscious shock from inside (and above) to awaken. This is Real Will manifesting, and because it's such a big thing and involves new volition it builds valuation, and of course you begin seeing things like recurrence and so on, just using the higher energy you accumulate (and that all sounds very new age to somebody who may be reading this not knowing me or what I'm doing, but so be it)...