Conscious shocks and the past

I jotted down a note on conscious shocks to myself awhile back:

"When remembering a time in the past where you need to not be, then rise above it now through the first conscious shock and the second conscious shock. That time and event and 'feel' exists in your time, your long body, but you can rise above it here and now."

In other words, the point I was getting at, is perhaps we can *actually* disappear from parts of our time by being conscious now. Parts of our time where we cringe when we think about it. Where we were in a place, doing something, that we didn't need to be (think Law of Accident). Something that was empty (vain). So when we think of those events in the past we can come into the state of self-remembering and non-identifying now, and in regard to them, and literally rise above those times or events in our long body of our living time.

It's no different than C Influence, or conscious influence, effecting us in our living time and causing a change in our being and in the life we attract to ourselves. - C.

ps- To give you more context I have many such events in my past, my youth, where I was really pushing myself into social circles where I just didn't need to be. It was beneath me, frankly. But I didn't know any better, or I was not confident in not trying to be one of the group, in that sense. So I can see them in my living time, and 'feel' them, and know the emptiness of the experience, the vanity, but now I can give myself conscious shocks regarding those events and experiences. I think, in the mystery of time and recurrence, I was doing it all along, because I recall times where I'd be at such an event, in a house, at a park, whatever, and just suddenly leave, and end up at a bookstore (as predictable as that sounds, but the bookstore represents a place where higher - B - influences can be found). Like a South American novelist said once, "bookstores were my sanctuary." So that might have been *me* effecting *me* from another part of my living time. And only true consciousness and true conscious influence will do that, which means conscious shocks.