Meandering and concrete thoughts...

I've figured out why I've been discombobulated. It's because for the first time in a long time I havn't had a driving aim. Prior to Work I had my pursuit of a balanced development of centers (even if I didn't see it in those terms back then) and my pursuit of B Influence (climbing that mountain).

Then when I connected with the Work I had the driving aim of learning the Work knowledge and doing it.

Then when I got on the internet I was driven by consolidating my understanding of the Work and what I'd been through by explaining it to others.

Then I did a little going-back detour (an important and needed one) of learning pure biblical doctrine. I did that.

So now lately I don't currently have a real driving aim. The things I think of doing now are things I've done. Even if I still need to do them, they aren't new.

Here's something related that I was thinking about just yesterday: I never really formulated a concrete aim to do with actual Work effort (and the Work itself, in its main sources, doesn't give you that). Work efforts just sort go on and proceed in a sort of organic sense or progression. Hit and miss as well. And start and stop with no real concrete schedule or sense of completed goal(s). 40 day efforts were the closest to a real concrete aim for doing (I just remember, and they were valuable).

Maybe something from the Bible. A week of weeks maybe. Seven week efforts. The seven day week is a natural form for Work. Everyday 'work' follows it. You rest on the seventh day. Work six days, rest the seventh. I've been through this before I know.

The effort, to describe it succinctly, is to be in the 3rd state of consciousness (that includes self-remembering, non-identifying, separation, etc.). So an aim would be to be in the 3rd state of consciousness for 3 hours a day (resting the seventh day), for seven weeks. Approach it as a Work-doing goal and it will be a real milestone effort. All the storms you go through in the midst of the seven weeks will be part of it. The struggle in the midst of the storms.

You need to have concrete forms and goals for the doing part of the Work.

Actually the Work, in its main sources, speaks of formulating aims. It doesn't give you any set aims, though. You have to formulate your own. Self-observation aims are powerful too. For instance, setting an aim to observe the different roles you play in your average day or week. I did alot of that. Aim and formulating aims is a big part of the Work and real development.